Ponderings

Man I loooove geeking out about Berserk! it's one of the few things that can make me talk for a long time LOL. Me and an old friend recently got in touch and what brought us back together was us geeking out together about Berserk. I usually like to remain on the outer fringes of a fandom, so I didn't know apparently there's going to be a film??? and even maybe a second season. I was like what? but yeah I was happy.

ONE DAY.

Right now i'm researching my own novel about the nature of leadership and king hood. I downloaded the Leviathan off Librevox and have been listening to that. Once again I need to re-listen to the Prince (narrated by Chip from tampa florida LOL) and check my Analects of Confucius. I'm going to type virtue and kingship into google books and see what comes up.

Secondly, somewhat berserk related, i've been thinking about dark fantasy and masculinity. I recently bought the Witcher 2 game (however guess what I can't play it because of the LAG). I think that these sort of medieval worlds devoid of morality is interesting. Is this based upon a warlike world? where masculinity must be exaggerated and rape is used as a weapon? So the differences between the sexes must be exaggerated? I think of the differing versions of femininity in Beserk, with Casca and Charlotte, both of whom are destroyed by male sexual desire and vengeance. About how the lower classes are portrayed in the Witcher, drunken, lewd and bigoted, whereas the nobility are again epitomes of masculinity, killing and sexing and killing and sexing. I need to research this!

Hard Times

My flatmate just texted me from America. She told me that she got an email from our university, telling her she had failed her degree. I sat for a few seconds in shock. Of all people, she shouldn't have failed. She's smart, really smart. I know she fudged up in the last few months but still. Sometimes i'm so mad at my uni, I failed my first year, and my other friend Alex also failed in the second year. My university is a bitch.

Another thing I want to complain about. Though I love said flatmate very much, for a long time she started going on about her body to me. She'd keep going on about how she hated her thighs and her tummy, how she had all these spots, dark circles, the way her hips were too fat and how she had to get rid of that horrid cellulite. I love my body but for some reason all her negativity got to me, I started looking in the mirror picking out my own flaws, when I went swimming yesterday, a past-time I usually enjoyed all I could think about was judging my body and being jealous of other girls there. I was horrified at myself, this isn't me. I have a very positive view of my body, I don't base my worth upon what men want, I don't judge myself based on my sexual experiences and beauty, I base myself on my morale acts and personality.

In order to remind myself of this I joined a tumblr group called "hellyeahdangerouscurves" and it was great, pictures of beautiful curvy girls. However I then started to judge myself based on them! and so many girls on this tumblr were sending in pictures of themselves (beautiful pictures) and writing underneath how much they hated their body and were trying to lose weight. I couldn't bear that negativity, so I deleted it from my feed.

I feel bad about this, bad that I let my flatmate get to me. I see that women who are insecure in their bodies also judge other women based on their weight. That's what I did and I refuse to do it anymore. I love my body and it makes me mad, to live in a world like this.

Thank goodness for fatshion chic and skorch, for all the bloggers I follow. For the magazine Kickback, for my own mother who never criticise herself, for everyone who feels content in their own skin.

Oh me

Man Odo and Nerys's relationship is getting tre complicated and that's the complicated I like. Odo is really a liquid so he doesn't do "human" well and Dax was all to Nerys "you care way too much about appearances" *Hint hint* but Nerys is all "Whuuu???" She's completely blinded to the affection they obviously share.

When she starts dating that monk dude from Bajour, she's tells Odo she loves this guy and Odo is all:
I was also mighty pissed off, I was like Nerys Y U NO love Odo? He's like the best. However I know that their friendship had taken a nose dive when Odo found out that Nerys had killed this guy, whose murder he had investigated ages ago. Also Odo is such a weird creature, as he says to that woman with the wig *who I loved by the way* his mouth is only an imitation of a mouth, so I get why Nerys is all "I don't see it" or "I don't want to see it"

But she's always there! Like with him all the time. This isn't friendship dudette!! This guy can't take a break in his bucket without her being there to check he's ok. Nerys is so blind it's like she switched places with that guy from Saint Seiya who gouged his own eyes out (yeah we got to that part... OH MAN). Its like a big mix up of the elephant man and Cyrano and etc. lol BUT I LOVE IT!
In the last episode I watched, Odo finds out his people are like tre evil and of course Nerys is there cockblocking every other woman who wants Odo as usual (lol) and then when he's all upset she takes his hand and he's all surprised.

OMG SQUEEEEE!
So cute <3

What's up with Saint Seiya? Episode 24

Yeah I got the episodes mixed up... doesn't matter though LOL.

For some reason this episode starts with a really long re-cap of what's been happening so far, I don't mind coz I can skip and also we get to see Shun <3 ah Shun


And it seems like it's the end for girly guy, even though before that we have this:
which leads to this:
No no he's not a lady, he's got "Griffiths" syndrome, where his penis is detachable apparently. YAH... that or Japan had strict censorship laws but instead of doing an waist up shot, gives us THIS. Thankfully later on it's a sunbeam that censors him. YAH needs more sunbeam:
Of course eventually we're spared any more of this, some sexual puns
Seiya replies with "I've got past your defences" and "We're both going down together" OOOH YEAAAH. Eventually however, Seiya KILLS him (Yeah I know), because that's what REAL men do, kill ambigiously gay men... OH saint seiya, you and your crazy masculinity!!

Oh and Marin gets a punch to the head.... like for real, just look at that picture!! Because this guy has some weird Moby Dick attack. Anyway.... she's not quite dead but to add insult to injury they decide to dig up Seiya's cross and stick it in the sea and tie her to it until the sea rises and she drowns, the way Japanese people used to do to Christians back in the day. At least they tied her upside down....... -_-.... my poor religion.

Anyway. Seiya's gotta save her OH and it's revealed that she IS his sister (big whoop) so yeah that's it for now.

What's up with Saint Seiya? Episode 28

Anyway. Episode 28. Not much has happened since last time, some people died, something shiny was stolen and then retaken, Saori threw her jewellry into the sea Titanic style and that was that. Anyway time for this episode... with SCREENSHOTS!


Shania (the best female character in this thing) of course wants to kill Seiya, but for some reason the Holy Father (??) chooses Marin, who was Seiya's teacher and also probably his not very !secret sister. Shania is pissed but she figures Marin will kill Seiya off for her.


Shun after saving Saori's life gets told off for not being masculine enough, coz you know he's like Andromeda and Andromeda is a GIRL and GIRLS CRY. LOL. Of course this cues for MANLY TEARS to be had by all:


Even by Saori:


*Le sniff* ANYWAY, back in Japan, this is happening:

Don't you just love his eyebrows? I mean seriously... they so happy.

Of course that brat that's the little brother of the hot pink haired guy cheats, CHEATING in football?? well I never!! Of course since Seiya is a Gary Stu he managed to catch this pass. Yeah.

Seiya goes on a sort of "date" with this pig haired girl who I can never remember the name of, this is what is happening: "Oh Seiya I love how you abandon me to go and fight overseas! you know i'll always be here waiting for you.... ALWAYS...." Seiya: "Hell YEAH"

Then suddenly this guy crashes their date. Yes it's a guy. I mean I am the Queen of loving girly looking men but this is too far! Look at those sumptous lips! geez! Turns out he's some sort of Silver Saint, while everyone else is a bronze (huh) and of course he's here to kill, guess who, Seiya.

Oh and Marin is there too, to introduce us to this guy and yes... that's his name LIZARD. LIZ_ARD.... so yeah. Lizard.... Anyway. He and Seiya fight and this happens:

Doh! But then Marin gets in and the action and dum dum dum.... Saint Seiya pulls it's patented move, where it "kills" off a character.



What kind of villain gives you a grave?? on a beach? I mean that's gonna wash away pretty quick and Seiya didn't leave a pretty corpse ya know, I mean this is where children play! Anyway, never fear, turns out it was some weird romeo/juliet punch that Marin did and he's ALIVE huzzah. Not before, in some weird way, his friends sense a disturbance in the force:

Hyoga at this time, is taunting a polar bear. Yeah that's what saints do in their free time, taunt wild animals at zoos... what a jerk LOL

Of course it ends with a cliff hanger, will Seiya defeat this girly guy?

YES... he's the main character... duh.

Love

(Pic not related LOL)

I am so in love with the Odo X Nerys pairing in ST:Deep Space Nine. It's like everything I ever wanted in a romance and more! I even have a massive crush on that shape-shifter!! Yes I am squeeing again LOL.

Ah ST first Seven and Chakotay and now this, I love you <3

Inspiration

Just some notes i'm jotting down here for future reference.

Black kimono type dress-> sheer material. Black hair-> striking green eyes -> jade reference. Chrysanthemum Baochai -> nickname Chry. Chry Baochai. Love conflict -> duty vs. passion. His duty -> hero, her duty -> career. Add Claudia as conflict? Alien child? Fahima robots again?? Star stories reference??